jibberish.

What a great word jibberish. This blog a little different than the rest. Since i have no trip to talk about recently and am finally all "caught up" i feel as though i should really write a post about my time here. What i have learned, how i like it, maybe even a little sappy/cheesy.

When i was a little girl, i thought i was from Mars (yes i will admit that).  My dad asked me how i liked it here (here meaning earth) so far? I responded "It's Stupid." ... i suppose a little side story that i thought i would share.
How do I like Germany: I like it, a lot.

I have been here for 3 months now and have already learned so much about a new culture and more importantly myself. After graduating school you always get the question so what are you doing next?  I chose to be an AuPair, but choosing to be an AuPair has much more meaning than just looking after kids, three beautiful, loving girls in my case. It shows you your strengths and weaknesses and how much growing up i still have to do. Yes, Mom and Dad i will not being having kids anytime soon. I am here to learn about myself, what i love and what i hate, what i need to change and what needs to stay. Signing up for this i knew would not be easy, any change is hard and i will say i was very naive when i thought this would be a piece of cake.

German language:  This was the hardest most difficult part from the beginning and still is. When i first got here i was so overwhelmed, everyone was talking so fast and i didnt know any words but danke, bitte and guten tag. I will say it is better now, but not anywhere where i would like to be. I can communicate with the little girls because my sentences dont have to be correct for them to understand but i want to badly to be able to communicate with the people around me friends and most importantly the family.  I understand what they are saying but when it comes to talking back im literally at a lost for words. I'm currently in my second level of an intensive german course: everyday for 4 weeks. I have learned so much but at times still feel so far from being where i want to be: communication in deutsch. My teacher says i need to be more confident with myself, but I know (and especially my parents) i have never had enough confidence in my learning ability. By January i hope (and my AuPair mother says) i will see a big difference.. only a month away!
... learning any new language is hard, but coming from english does not make it easier, how we pronounce words and how we make sentences does not match german and what i have the most struggle with.... shade (too bad). Ill be so thrilled when one of my blog posts is in a little german!!

A new culture, a new language, a new family: an exciting meaningful experience to say the least. I also have learned what family feels like miles away from home, you appreciate them much more let me tell you.
My dream for so long was to backpack Europe and honestly still is, but right now i know this is what i should be doing. To be fully emerged in a new culture is much more beneficial in my eyes than seeing all the famous world landmarks (though very cool.)  My good friend, Matt, is backpacking Europe and though i am envious of where he is, what he is seeing and the different people he is meeting; every person has a path that he/she takes; this is my path.  Maybe when im 30 ill backpack europe (yes my mind works like i have billions of dollars.)

jibberish thoughts are now starting so im going to end now.

"Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them."